Reflections

Ode to this decade...

I've learned so much and am continuing to learn more and more conceptually, foundationally, and most importantly a new awareness within myself. I find that the development and conditioning of school still resides deep within me. I attempt to overcome this nagging feeling that I am going on year four in this industry as of June 2010. That is the same increment of time that I went through high school... and college... i think back and remember 2002 as if it were yesterday and it is now 8 years?!?!?!?! It's a reality check.

Top Albums that got me through the end of High School, into college, out of college, into the work force...
1.) Stankonia- Outkast
2.) Whoa Nelly! Nelly Furtado
3.) Kid A- Radiohead
4.) Country Grammer- Nelly
5.) The Moon and Antarctica- Modest Mouse
6.) Nia- Blackalicious
7.) Brushfire Fairytales- Jack Johnson
8.) Drops of Jupiter- Train
9.) Songs in a Minor- Alicia Keyes
10.) India.Arie- India Arie
11.)Live at Java Joe’s- Jason Mraz
12.) Room for Squares- John Mayer
13.) Come Away with Me- Norah Jones
14.) A Rush of Blood to The Head- Coldplay
15.) El Cielo- Dredg
16.)Sevens Travels- Atmosphere
17.) God Loves Ugly- Atmosphere
18.) Plans- Death Cab for Cutie
19.) youth- matisyahu
20.) Amputechture- Mars Volta

The Countdown Begins!

Thank goodness we are wrapping up 2009!

I am ready to bound into 2010 with a new way of looking at life.

It is time to focus on new beginnings.

I am going to make a pact to myself and others to tell it exactly how it is.

Hip Hip... Hooray!!!!

Four Days until Christmas!!!

Precious

I would like to introduce to you the early Christmas presence our family received.

This little "ootz" is my new niece!

I'm in LOVE. I now realize what it is like to care for someone so unconditionally and deeply.

WORK

Xmas Dog

My friend Britta's dog Riley... I absolutely adore her!!!

GO DUCKS

Blah!!!!

There's so much emphasis on Famous people and their personal lives.

It is a political spectical... A means to distract society of what is really happening.

There doesn't need to be such a focus on the external aspects of life.

Go Inward and FOCUS.

:) Loves and Hugs... I am stepping off the soap box now.

Hope everyone's Thanksgiving was full of food and fun. It was an adventure for my family and myself :) We went to the beach and enjoyed the cozy, stormy weather... Although the sunset was magnificent on Wednesday.

Loves and Cheers,

O-B-A-M-A

New Sea Creature

This undated photo released by Census of Marine Life and the Woods Hole Oceanographic Institution shows a transparent sea cucumber, Enypniastes, creeping forward on its many tentacles at about 2 cm per minute while sweeping detritus-rich sediment into its mouth at 2,750 meters in the Northern Gulf of Mexico. Thousands of marine species eke out an existence in the ocean's pitch-black depths by feeding on the snowlike decaying matter that cascades down, and even sunken whale bones, according to a report released Sunday, Nov. 22, 2009

Turkey Mania

I think my obsession with the holidays is to compensate for the immense sadness of knowing a huge part of my life is behind me. It is officially almost a year where I have been without the utmost comfort of maternal love. It is saying goodbye to my youth. I realize that this is it. This is my life and is truly up to me to make the most of thse experiences :)

Someone once told me, "we are spiritual beings having a physical experience" it struck me as silly when I first heard these words.



Now I realize the validity and truth of it.



I am ever so thankful for my life, family, friends, and opportunities that have come my way thus far.



I feel lucky to have loved as deeply as I have experienced thus far. Even though it is gone now, I am now realizing how important it is for me to have that memory to draw upon. I will always love what we had and am okay with it staying being a part of my past.



I am thankful for my life!

Turkey day is near...

Mmm... It will be a feast of goodness...

Thank God my family and I all get to be together for the cozy holiday!!!

We are going to drink, eat, and be merry in each other's company... I am so very much excited for such a fantastic memorable opportunity!

I am so excited to see my family and hang out at the cozy little bungalow!!!

Faith...

This dog is amazing...

Urban Decay Lip Gloss Pocket Rocket

http://www.urbandecay.com/categories/PocketRocketLipGloss.cfm

Hair Ideas...

Sunny dreams...

Ride your bike, the bus, or quit driving solo !!! Our Earth as we know it is going to disappear

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/science/nature/8364926.stm

Holiday Fever

It's the time for apple cider, snow angels, and family. I am so excited to curl up and watch copious amounts of Holiday Movies!!! Be with my family and friends cherishing each and every moment that goes by where those around me are happy, healthy, and able to be close by. If not close by than close at heart...

It is the first holiday where I am actually coherent and aware of just how quickly time goes by... There isn't any time to waste to just enjoy... I miss my grandma so deeply and profoundly that the grief has pushed me into a new reality of appreciation. There is a beauty in sadness but now with dwelling. I will make a pact to celebrate her memory through the holidays.

This too shall pass....

Careful who you sleep next to

This is a crazy article!!!http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/uk_news/wales/8364393.stm



Watch out!!!

Contract of Departure

I will make an effort to save money each and every month for my travels to far off lands.

I will become more regimented for the year of 2010. This means that I will be making a conscious effort to spend less....

Rescue Me!!!!

Good Afternoon All,

I just got done with an ever so stimulating afternoon of CPR training. Two breaths to 30 compressions... This is very important business here :)

But as I was sitting in class listening to some of the stories, my mind was full of ideas, feelings, and extreme inspiration! I want to travel to far off lands and learn about things that aren't anything to do with the finance world and the bottom line affairs of the economy... Next thought, how the hell do I get there?!?!!? I have now decided to look into employment opportunities with the Red Cross, LOL, I know it sounds silly but just wait...

<3,

Mel

Holiday Fever

Christmas is coming!!!Christmas is coming!!!



It's going to be such a great Winter of 2009 because that means that we are that much closer to wrapping this hellish year up to an end :()

Up, Up, and Up

BBC.org had readers send in three words to describe economic times for next year 2010... This is what they came up with. I think it's fitting but I would like to say we will see the DOW keep climbing up, up, and further up.... Maybe new stocks will prevail?

Please give me the strength to handle this place

Please grant me the patience to put up with this hell...

Only for a while longer...

Once I decide what I want to happen with my life, I am outta here....

Today is a gloomy oregon day. I enjoy the cold, the dampness, and use it as an excuse to cuddle under my favorite hand knit blanket and have a fire. These are the days to write in my journal by the fire, listen to calm sultry music, and relax.

Today is a day where I am just existing. I reach out to those who I think will be of support. Unfortunately I realize just how lonely life is... It's a realization that causes me to feel oddly enough inspired. I am my own best friend. I cannot seek out comfort from others.

I need to learn to just reach within myself to avoid disappointment,
<3

The Weekend is Over

Here I am...

Sitting at my desk...

Losing my intellect as you read this...

Awaiting some sort of miracle to happen...

Making me disappear from this job...

Escada Piano

Love Lesson...

Sesame Street Birthday!!!!

Reminds me of my childhood which was, shit, 22 years ago when I was watching this show... I feel older now :)

Happy 40th Birthday to Sesame Street!

Tee hee

Happy Friday Everyone!

Thursday Insight

Tarot reading for Mel:

Love:The Tower
Touchstone:The Hermit
Career:The Pope
-->The Tower heralds a testing time emotionally today, dear Mel, while the Hermit indicates a powerful sense of solitude and melancholy. You are feeling abandoned by those around you, misunderstood by those you love, and totally helpless about your emotional future. Shut yourself away, stand back and consider calmly the life choices that you see before you. In the professional context, quite clearly, this is not the ideal time for sharing your ideas and plans with others. The Pope and the Hermit are asking you to assess your own situation, to withdraw into yourself in order to find solutions, and not to look for help from outside. If you get the chance, try to get away by yourself, or sit in a quiet corner somewhere. Keep the door to your office closed and put up a notice: "Do not disturb – I’m trying to think...“

Wedding Season

Thursday

The Light Illuminates the redness, vividness, and rawness of the fall leaves, a sign of transition from the warm summer sun into the cold crisp winter to come.

The red is familiar somehow. The vivid rawness of my feelings when I had to say goodbye.

wowzer...

We Can Thank Lacey L for this one :)

Precious little gem

Isn't she the cutest ever?!?!?!

I love babies hands and feet... They are so small and cute :)

This will be my future one day!

May I please be here right now?!?!?

With Margarita in hand and some yoga poses to center in with?!?!?!

Tuesday Goodies...

Take me for a ride!!! My head is in a cloud of balloons right now. 4 a.m. does no one well.

Especially with eight hours of work ahead!

Halloween 2009!!!